My 20th

So it's been a week. I've been 20 for a week.
I must say, my twentieth was reallllly fun! I think it's the first time where I was really surprised. So that's why it's here, I guess.

Of course, APATH celebrated my birthday en mass at banquet. I was sad that I had to share my cake with an 18 year old. But whatever.

So then came the 16th and I didn't really have time to think about my birthday because of finals and all. But it was the day of my last final. But I was really sad because a lot of my friends had gone home so I kind of felt abandoned.

But Faye was still here because of finals and we had dinner together with the Irvine kids [Chris, Daniel, and Jen] and Brian at the Sushi House in the ghetto. It was really good! Dynamite! So after dinner we hung out in my room, but it was a MESS because I was cleaning and getting ready to go home. So after a while, Daniel and Chris left and Brian, Faye, and I decided to go get some snacks.

So, in the hallway, Ryan saw me and gave me two packs of mochi and three Odwallas, the best birthday present ever! just kiddding. So after the snack run, we hung out in Ryan's room watching the freshmen play videogames and such. I decided to go finish packing so I said I'd be back later. But when I finished putting the laundry in the machine, I noticed that Faye was gone and I was sad.

So I tried to clean more and Jen hung out with me, I told her the creepy stories about the psycho who shall not be named. So then at 12 there was a knock, I didn't think much of it, I thought it was Ryan and Nick coming to say happy birthday. So I opened the door and EVERYONE was outside.

Faye was standing there with this apple pie and Hung and Jeff were there too and a bunch of the freshmen. Alan was there and smiling which was kind of surprising considering I find him stand-offish in the hallway. But yay! And Faye got me the blow up magic wand thingy because she couldn't get balloons! I was sooo touched.

So we went to the study lounge and there was the apple pie and whip cream. I saw Felix walk away with a tub of the whip cream so I was scared. And as I was cutting the pie, my senses were right. I could feel two hands near me, so I ducked and I felt two hands rub whip cream in my hair. I got creamed! aahaha. But luckily, I ducked.

Then I proceeded to grab some whip cream and chase down Hung, one of the perpetrators. I chased him into the bathroom where he locked himself in a stall, so I threw the whip cream in there. I also got Felix back. It was fun!

So after that, I showered and went back to cleaning my room. I fell asleep with my room a total mess and woke up at 7, I was suppose to leave at 8 for the airport. So I quickly cleaned up everything and stuffed it into my closet and luckily left at 8ish. I was contemplating whether or not to take the bus to the BART station whenit passed. So I walked. When I got to the BART station it was like 9 and the Fremont train left already. But whatever. I got to the airport in time. And woot! Nobody sat next to me on the plane.

Then, I was HOME! Then I went to go get Cheesecake Factory! I had coerced my parents into getting me cheesecake for my birthday. So I had a Godiva chocolate cheesecake. It was to die for! Yummy!

Yay! More updates later!

I've decided to do some naming...

I've decided to name my camera Fluffy,
my phone Violet
and my laptop Franklin.

That is all.

my future ipod will be known as Freddy

I feel likeI want to cry. I am seriously worried now. I don't know chemistry, physics, or mcb. I am going to fail. Noone can help me. I wasted this weekend. I regret it.

What happened to me this past year and a half? No no more. I'm not letting myself fall behind. It's time for high school Janet to kick butt! :]

Simply put, I am so pathetic it's sad. Why do I suck so much at everything? I feel so insignificant. Nothing I've done here has made me proud. Others are doing well, going above and beyond. I'm digging myself deeper into a hole. Bury me now.

Confession

I secretly hate people who are more competent than me at this college thing. Well, I guess it's not a secret anymore...

School sucks. Life goes on. It rains. I which something fun would happen. Ehh.

Only in Dreams

All it took was a good night's sleep. Or rather passing out on my bed at 3 because my tummy hurt. But I now feel better. Those wandering thoughts are gone. My priority is to FOCUS.

tired

I wonder if I had made the right decision in coming here. It's too late to be thinking about this. There's nothing I can do now except go on and do better. What would it have been like had I gone to a different school? I wish life was different. I wish I was different. I would like change.

It's days like these...

Every complaint seems to concern chemistry. I know I should stop. It's my fault I don't do well, not anybody else's. I'm glad that this year, my complaints are about school as opposed to last year, about a person. It's funny how things can change. Although I very much would like a boyfriend. But the best ones will just happen. So I'll wait for it to just happen, like in the movies. I know it's stupid, but whatever.
I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving and be home. Being away has made me realized the importance of the holidays. I look forward to the crowded airport and the made for tv holiday movies and the holiday themed tv shows. It's just in the spirit and this is the spirit that reminds me of home. AND I absolutely love how it's Thanksgiving and a sunny 80 degrees. You just have to love southern California.
Too bad, I'm not there. :[ It's raining and it won't stop anytime soon. AND I STILL DON'T HAVE RAINBOOTS.
So that's all for now.
♥

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Time is an Invention

I need to study. Why don't I study? I remember when I used to study. I wish I studied more. Maybe what I'm studying isn't interesting or motivating me? Whatever. I'm just too lazy