What happened to me this past year and a half? No no more. I'm not letting myself fall behind. It's time for high school Janet to kick butt! :]

Simply put, I am so pathetic it's sad. Why do I suck so much at everything? I feel so insignificant. Nothing I've done here has made me proud. Others are doing well, going above and beyond. I'm digging myself deeper into a hole. Bury me now.

Confession

I secretly hate people who are more competent than me at this college thing. Well, I guess it's not a secret anymore...

School sucks. Life goes on. It rains. I which something fun would happen. Ehh.

Only in Dreams

All it took was a good night's sleep. Or rather passing out on my bed at 3 because my tummy hurt. But I now feel better. Those wandering thoughts are gone. My priority is to FOCUS.

tired

I wonder if I had made the right decision in coming here. It's too late to be thinking about this. There's nothing I can do now except go on and do better. What would it have been like had I gone to a different school? I wish life was different. I wish I was different. I would like change.

It's days like these...

Every complaint seems to concern chemistry. I know I should stop. It's my fault I don't do well, not anybody else's. I'm glad that this year, my complaints are about school as opposed to last year, about a person. It's funny how things can change. Although I very much would like a boyfriend. But the best ones will just happen. So I'll wait for it to just happen, like in the movies. I know it's stupid, but whatever.
I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving and be home. Being away has made me realized the importance of the holidays. I look forward to the crowded airport and the made for tv holiday movies and the holiday themed tv shows. It's just in the spirit and this is the spirit that reminds me of home. AND I absolutely love how it's Thanksgiving and a sunny 80 degrees. You just have to love southern California.
Too bad, I'm not there. :[ It's raining and it won't stop anytime soon. AND I STILL DON'T HAVE RAINBOOTS.
So that's all for now.
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