concrete and stairs

while studying at the library yesterday, i could hear people going up and down the stairs. I thought to myself what would happened if somebody fell down those stairs. would people laugh? well, long story short. it was me who would later fall down those concrete stairs. it scraped my wrists and knees (the only day i wear shorts happens to be the only day i fall down stairs). i started laughing at how funny the situation was and people probably thought i was crazy.
so, it felt really warm the past couple of days so i decided to wear shorts yesterday. it was really windy and i was freezing and then the sky became somewhat gloomy. just my luck.

cupcakes and food

there's more to life than tests and schools...
i read an article about how these kids in Korea study for 15 hours a day to get into Ivy League schools. It's amazing, but also a bit sad. Going to school is about learning and being educated, but it's also about growing up and being ourselves. Studying 15 hours a day would miss the point. I feel like there would be many kids who end up with those prestigious degrees, but end up being miserable. I don't know... maybe I shouldn't even be one to comment on this since I, too, once wanted to go to Ivy League schools. I'm sooooo old!

OMG, I love food blogs. I've been reading them for like a year or so now, and I am so in love with them. I want to get a kitchen and cook and bake! I want to try all these cool foods and bake cupcakes. I'm a total sucker for cupcakes. They're the cutest things ever! When I go home, I should take advantage of the kitchen at the restaurant, but I'll probably end up being too lazy to cook. AHHH. And, I wish that there were bakeries near school so I can eat more baked goods (and weigh a million pounds.)

sun and me

Even though it's only hitting the mid 60's as the high temperature, it's freaking HOT in my apartment. I seriously cannot breathe in there. I've gotten so used to being cold. I really want to wear dresses to school but I'm afraid it'll get cold. The weather here is so funky. It'll be warm and then cold and then windy and then warm. I never know for sure how the weather will turn out. So, I don't want to be that loser who gets caught in a rain storm wearing only a tshirt and a skirt...it's not fun (trust me, I already did it once). LOL.

I hate living in this city because when I venture into downtown to do errands, I always get accosted by bums asking for money. Sometimes, they don't even look like bums. I was so annoyed because I was just walking and this girl (who as well dressed) was like "excuse me." So, I thought she needed directions. But, then she was like "can i have a dollar? I know you have one." I was like wtf, why should i give you money? I hate being bombarded by bums anywhere I go. I feel sorry for some of them, but most of them are just taking advantage of people. Uggh.

summer and life

I absolutely cannot wait for summer to come! Albeit, I'll eventually have to come back up here to take summer school and such. I don't mind summers in Berkeley because the weather's A LOT nicer than being in sweltering LA. I mean, it even drizzles during summer here. Like, yesterday, the radio guy said "OOH. it's going to be hot today! It's 50 degrees!" Meanwhile, Dallas Raines in LA says " It's going to be chilly today, it's 50 degrees!"

I absolutely hate it when I speak to counselors for advice and all they tell me is that I won't be able to do what I want to do. Why is my tuition paying these people to tell me I can't amount to anything in life? Aren't they here to reassure me that I can achieve my dreams no matter what? What's the point of listening to them? I'm gonna have to tread these scary waters on my own. I'm an adult after all! :)

My parents have pointed out that I have a problem with people looking at me. I know, I do have that problem. But, isn't it annoying that people are looking at you? It makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me that propels them to look at me. Is there something on my face? Did my hair turn into snakes like Medusa? Did I accidentally tattoo my face like Mike Tyson? The reason I bring this up is that the person at the table across from me keeps turning around to look at me. And there's noone else behind me, so I'm not being paranoid. I'm weird.... (as you can tell by this long diatribe)

Also, after taking French and biology classes, my spelling in English has gotten worse. sadness

PS David Bowie is hot in that weird androgynous way.....
I like weird people though....

weather and nature

It went from stifling-omg-i-can't-breathe-HOT one day to wind wind wind and cold cold cold. Why does the weather do this? I look at the trees and they're not even moving. BUT, there's wind blowing everything around!

And, the other day in class, my professor said "...and once God has found something perfect, he uses it again..." This totally hit me really hard. I didn't know why until I realized that this is the first time I've heard a professor say something like this, and she was a science professor. Sometimes science and religion don't mix, but I've never heard somebody say this. Usually professors say "...and once nature has found something perfect, she uses it again..." It was just really weird. Or, maybe, I'm really weird.

peaceout

question and pulitzer

Question:
Should I take a class with a Pulitzer Prize winning, National Book Award winning, countless other award winning Poet?

Give me some advice!

I want to take this class because I want to learn from such an incredible person (as other people think) and from someone who surely knows a thing or two about poetry. I like poetry to a certain extent.

It's an environmental science class because he's a poet and an environmental activist. It's suppose to be really cool to combine poetry with nature, but after taking so many "cool" classes, I'm worried it's not my cup of tea. Also, as sad as this is, I don't want to be annoyed about getting overburdened with a class that I didn't need to take.

What do you think?

life and people

I read the news on the BBC everyday. And, everyday there is something sad, whether it be political corruption in Zimbabwe or Chinese rule in Tibet. I feel really small when I realized there's nothing I can do to help these people. I read yesterday about Burmese migrant workers trying to get into Thailand and dying on the way. This isn't really all that different from what happens in the deserts of Texas and California. These people did nothing wrong, they just wanted a better life. and they died for it. That's just sad. On the other hand, people who caused these problems in the first place live wonderfully and never have a single obstacle in their life. There's so many causes I support and just the fact that there's so many causes out there shows that the world is somewhat sad.

sigh.

people and people

Remember when I was telling Bradley about how professors dated students and then Bradley made a comment to his sidekick about how they should teach college? What the heck does that mean? OMG. Has he ever wanted to do really weird stuff? LOL.

libraries and me

I have grown to really really like studying in libraries. They're beautiful and quiet (sometimes). I love the natural sunlight and the modern architecture they have. I LOVE LOVE BIG WINDOWS where I can look out to see the sun shine on vast green lawns and other students running to class. The new East Asian Library just opened and it's GORGEOUS. AND there's OUTLETS everywhere! Joy for outlets! I love pretty libraries that look like museums, they make me feel good about being a student here. The music library, VLSB, the east asian library, and the architecture libraries are among my favorites.

OKAY, when I wrote the last post on Sunday, I thought I was going to die from all the stress. There was so much to do and so little time. I really just need to breathe. On a different note, I still love watching Rock of Love 2 and I think Ambre's mean. She pretends to be the nice innocent one, but she's the one who works on getting somebody kicked off the show. And, I really liked Jessica because she seemed normal. The other girls are, in their words, "skanks." Which I wholly agree with.

peaceout!

i feel so horrible right now. i have four tests in the upcoming three days. i have a composition IN FRENCH due tomorrow. AND i forgot to email notes to a classmate (who doesn't have her own copy because she doesn't go to class). so, initially, i felt really bad about forgetting to email her the notes, BUT it's really not my fault because she shouldn't depend on someone else for NOTES! i'm so busy with my own life right now, that i can't be making sure other people do well in the class too! sigh. i am so tired.

crows and gelato

I come out of my class to the roar of clapping and guitar strumming on lower sproul. Today's the annual Spring Concert. It's usually not that exciting. Last year, Yellowcard was here, singing in the rain (without a roof over its head.) So, this year, they didn't tell us who was coming. I wanted to know the "surprise big name act", so I walked towards the music. I stand from afar because there's people EVERYWHERE. I see dreadlocks flying in air. Nope, not any of my bands- they don't have dreadlocks. So, I ask the girl next to me, she says it's the counting crows. OK, so I go get my ice cream. I think the highlight of my day was the gelato. Although, eating it while listening to the Counting Crows play live is pretty cool. But, in all honesty, I only know one of their songs...and it was the one from Shrek.

peaceout

ps. seeing them made me think of you for some reason. you are totally my music buddy.

meese and cheese

Last night was hilarious. I almost died from laughing so hard about mooses [meese!]. Oh, those poor creatures.

SPRING BREAK was pretty fun. All the Bradley drama. lol. I was so worried that we wouldn't find him or that he'll be like "who the fuck are you?" But, that was not the case! AWWW.... he loves PC. Bradley is someone I won't forget... I really do think he made a difference in my life and, even, perhaps how I view the world. I love going home: food, shopping, family, and my other half! :)

ooh! annoying stats guy didn't show up! that section is dwindling fast!
"omg... i can't stand how he invades my personal space!"
"he's ugly isn't he"
OH DEAR, you know me so well :)

peace out! (that'll be my slogan for the time being!)