In search of the homeless

So, the monk that my mother and I have respected so much and offered alms to has returned after about 3 weeks out of state. I read on his blog [he's the one I wrote about before, so he's pretty young and technologically inclined] that he has foregoed housing at the temple in true practice adhering strictly to the Buddha's practice. So, this meant he's homeless and living in a park. So my mother and I walked to the temple in the morning like we always did. So that's about a 2 mile walk. We then headed for the park on Strathern street, a little less than a mile away. So then we wandered in the park for about an hour, periodically asking people if they've seen a man in orange robes. People just looked really confused. I really respect his determination and beliefs but omg he made it so hard to find him. We didn't find him at the park and decided to head back to the temple. No one at the temple knew if he was back for sure or not, so we just sat there waiting for my dad. His "grasshopper" called me back to tell me that he was indeed back and that he was at the temple's guest house, about ten feet away from where I was sitting. The irony of venturing far and wide to look for someone who's so close. So my mom and I went to see him finally after being somewhat disappointed about a pointless trip. It turns out that all the temple officials convinced him to return to the temple even though he didn't want to. It must be especially hard for him since he's not Thai.

In other news, no wedding plans yet! LOL. That previous post was so in the moment. I mean that I really do see him as the man I would love to marry, but that's a faraway thought considering that I won't get married until I have my next degree finished. But, I really want to know what happens next. :) He's so freaking cute.

And he was talking to my dad yesterday about what to look for in a good wife and all that fun because his friend's engaged and my dad was teasing him. Too bad I interrupted them. LOL.

mushy

Is it weird, but I think I met the man I want to marry. Yes, coming from me it sounds fickle, since I've crushed on so many people and came up with so many lists of qualities I'm looking for. But, I get a weird feeling from this guy - like I would be very happy with him. The thought of him actually made me think about marriage! And I haven't had a crush on anybody in the longest time! And I remember a fortune teller [yes, I believe that stuff] telling me that in this year or the next, I would meet my significant other. So, all signs are seriously pointing to him. AND my parents adore him so much. I've even talked to my mom about this and she wholeheartedly agrees! Yes, he's a customer, which makes this feel a little uncomfortable and weird in that he knows a lot about me, which is different from all the other boys who've passed by in my life [I sound so old and lame]. I feel like such an old lady writing this. But I know I would get a big laugh from this post in 5 years. Who'll I get married to?

 

And why am I so freaking fixated on marriage? I'm an independent woman of the 21st century and I'm still tied down by these archaic notions. Whatever, I have and always will be a sucker for love stories.

 

So let me describe this knight in shining armor:

-a recently graduated dentist [UCLA]

-tall

-cute [that always factors into my reasoning somehow]

-very nice and polite [especially to my parents]

-really simple and down-to-earth

-somewhat quiet

-always talks to me, even when I'm being mean

 

But all in all, I think I just may really be just in the moment and I’ll laugh like crazy when I read this in a week or so.

random jello of thoughts

sometimes i get so aggravated that i think "blank is the bane of my existence." i think i've done this so many times that a lot of things are becoming the bane of my existence: drivers, bad drivers, giftcards, stupid people, applications.....

this was a rather random post.

the hot sun is melting my brain.

help!

ok.

see you next time.

i need to continue writing.

my story

not this random post.

i can't believe i'm writing a story.

do i really know what i'm doing?

of course.

i googled a lot of stuff.

lol.

google.

that's the lifesaver

can you see how random this is getting?

another summer day.

Is Michael Jackson really dead? That's the huge mystery for today. I seriously doubt it. The media is just blowing this way out of control, because - like me - it is incredibly bored on a sunny day. I am bored, very bored. And I have a million things to do! Books to read, things to write, people to call. But here I am, retreating into my little cyber world. That just sounded really weird.

EDIT: ok. he really is dead. RIP

summer 09 here I come!

I really like Project Gutenberg. Who says no to free books? lol. I've been reading and writing a lot lately. I'm trying to read the books I got from the library (yay! I finally went in and renewed my card), the recommended Buddhist books (What the Buddha taught and a lot of things written by Mahasi Sayadaw), the stuff on my Google Reader (I love how organized my online reading is now), French Vogue (Yay! or else I'll forget everything French), and now the old literature I can find on gutenberg.org. And I'm giving my writing desires a shot - isn't that the way to spend a year off? I mean, I always had the urge to write and I always did it whenever I was way too tired to study or focus on schoolwork. So now that I have most of this time on my hands, shouldn't I spend it imparting my worldly wisdom on fictional people? LOL. So in looking at this, I realize I'm spending a very nerdy summer. That and volunteering and summer school! LOL. Summer school looks so odd now that I have finished college. But, the classes sound interesting. The only other things I still want to do are:

1. Learn to meditate

2. Learn Pilates/ yoga/ or the bar method

3. Cooking/ Designing classes

4. A job, not picky anymore

5. SHOPPING!!!!!

my skin!

So my dad has eczema. It's genetic and is part of a family of problems: sinusitis, asthma, etc. I already have sinusitis - so I guess eczema is coming in a few years. Thank god for moisturizers! No wonder I love them so much! LOL

Nostalgia

I was reading an old post and I found some funny stuff - especially this:

Me: I can't stand how he invades my personal space!

You: He's ugly isn't he?

LOL.

i wish i had wings...

So I'm thinking about going to Chicago for my cousin's graduation (or rather my father is forcing me to go). I thought I would use the Southwest Rewards I had. But nope they're not enough to get to Chicago. That sucks so much. Now I've looked through so many airlines and the cheapest flights are like $400 roundtrip and luckily without any stops in Hicksville-Middle-Of-Nowhere, USA. But $400! C'mon. I thought that flights would be cheap now since the news reporter keep harping on and on about the airline price wars. $400 is not a winner. Or maybe I'm just too poor :(

loads of free time

So I've HAD loads of free time. I've been reading and writing - that sounds so boring. But I've been reading The Crimson Petal and the White which is awesome since it has made me pretty preoccupied most of the time. And, now, I've lost my train of thought. So that's it for now! LOL.

Kris Allen

Oh I hope Kris wins American Idol. This is the first time since the first season that I've actually watched the show in its entirety. I love Adam Lambert for his songs. But somehow Kris is just awesome. And he's such an underdog - the judges dismiss him so easily. Go Kris Go!

Brandon!

So this was the conversation I had yesterday:

Tattooed dude: So are you going to my brother-in-law's concert?

Me: No, the concert tickets are too expensive for me right now

TD: I told him to stop by and say hi to you

Me: Oh really? Which one's your brother in law by the way? [I thought it was Alex, which would mean it's not necessary for this dude to be some messenger]

TD: Brandon!

Me: Cool! Everybody loves Brandon!

TD: Not me...

LOL. that was hilarious.

summer update

So, I've been a good Buddhist and have been "Sai baht"-ing every morning. This usually involves me giving food to a monk. I've always given chocolate since all the old ladies make real food. And the monk is Canadian, so I'm sure he misses chocolate and cookies and pancakes. Well, today he was speaking to me and called me "child." In Thai, this is "luke" and it's a term of endearment. My parents, aunts, and uncles call me that all the time. Except this time it felt weird because he's not that much older than me and he calls me "luke." But, it's the most appropriate choice of words. 

And I'm in a Robert Pattinson craze, but I don't think I would ever ever want to meet him. He seems awesome to meet though. Ashley Greene calls him a hermit and that, to me, makes him so cool. He has that James Dean mystique. But, like Megan Fox, I don't want to meet him if he lives up to her words of being an immature little boy. And I'd hate to have a bad image of him. But, ahh, he's so awesome!

And there's a customer here. I always had a tiny crush on him when I was younger because he was so effing hot when he was in high school. But, I see him now and he's really aged. That's so sad. He was uber cute. and I am so shallow. lol.

p.s. Jackson Rathbone is cute!!

p.s.s. I really like the Black Heart Inertia video!!

small envelopes suck

I'm worried. But, I absolutely expected this. burn all the small envelopes! eeek......

unusual

i think i saw william hung yesterday. then i sneezed 13 times in a row. what an eventful day!

lala land

I've recently realized what a jumble of thoughts run through my head each day. They are all so different which makes me happy because I realize that I live a fun life not a dull, stupid one that I make it out to be sometimes when I'm frustrated or stress. Here's what's in my mind recently:

1] I met an American Buddhist monk who really fascinates me. He speaks Thai better than I do and know more about Buddhism more than I do. I'm now really interested in learning Vipassana meditation.
2] Somebody I've known for a while has returned stateside after medical school in Ireland. How cool is that? He told me about spontaneous vacations to Paris and Amsterdam, Africa and Thailand. Now he's started his own charity!
3] I helped a fourth grader put gold glitter on her cross to put on her mission project. I remember building my own mission in fourth grade! Hers was all sparkly everywhere.
4] The ER is always running through my mind because I just keep rethinking all the interesting moments in my mind over the week that follows my hours.
5] This thought is so materialistic and heartbreakingly consumerism at its purest - I want that big yellow clutch that Vanessa had on Gossip Girl and the black and gold Chanel purse Serena carried. OMG.
6] And I CONSTANTLY worry about whether or not I will get into med school..... sigh.

Those things have been running through my mind and on paper [screen] they don't look as interesting as they did in my mind.

nepotism anybody?

What do you say to someone who offers to give your name a boost when it comes to school admissions and jobs?

I've said no to all three times this has happened to me and I wonder if it's stupid of me. But, as with anything I do, I would like to know that it was my achievement and not someone's fundraising or job title. And I think it would actually do little good for me... but it still makes me wonder if any of it would have helped.

a million years away

so, I haven't updated this thing in a SUPER DUPERLY long time...

I've been volunteering at the ER and it's pretty fun talking to all sorts of people. AND one person recognized me from the restaurant even though I didn't recognize him. It was hilarious because he sent his friends to thank me. I was like wow, dude, I didn't even do anything. But, it was pretty nice! :)

And when I started volunteering at the elementary school, it felt like I was away for a long time even though I just missed like four days. But, the kids are cool and I realized that I do like volunteering there especially since they're doing more arts and crafts! The kids are creative, especially the boys - I didn't expect them to like beads and paints.

I've been watching a lot of Korean dramas since my mom loves them. They're so fun because it's so unlikely to happen. There's a really popular one - "Boys over Flowers" and it's about how this poor girl gets to go to this fancy private school and the richest boy falls in love with her. Never would happen in a million years. It really reminds me of "Gossip Girl."

I still have a little hope left for med school. I hope all goes well!

And for some reason I thought of Bradley a few days ago. It was probably because of some funny memory, of which I can't remember now.....

Rainy weekend.

I start volunteering in an ER tomorrow! I'm super excited! Last time, I saw a helicopter land. I've never been that close to a helicopter before and, now, I'm in awe of them!

And why am I all of a sudden inundated with facebook messages and post from people I haven't spoken to in a million years? It's so weird.

Plan B Mode

I'm in the Plan B mode of my life. I'm excited about the prospects of the opportunities I'll have if I take some more time to fix my application and such. Working on Plan B doesn't make me as sad now because a lot of my friends seem to be working on it too - even though they're way better students than I am. So I've been doing some studying at night and I LOVE how quiet my house is at night. It's beautifully peaceful. When I stayed up in high school working on papers for Bechtel, I hated the silence of my house - I turned up the tv, radio, etc so that I could escape the silence. Ahhh, how old I've become...

Missing Kid!

OMG. they lost a kid! Dude! That was scary - how do you just lose a first grader without knowing it?

Hopefully they found him.....

ugly boyfriends, deaths, an actual prince "charming"

Okay, this may seem really mean ... BUT... I saw that Vivian had written a note on Facebook and attached a picture of a somewhat ugly/old man. I had a hunch that this might be the boyfriend she talks of. To confirm my hunch I read the note... hmmm... so that's really her boyfriend. I remember how we used to have conversations about how *not so pretty* girls/boys get significant others - well sometimes, those s.o. are somewhat fugly and look like pedophiles. But, I don't mean that in a bitchy way.... but it's probably super bitchy.... sigh... AND I know that looks aren't indicative of anything or do they mean that much...but still, humans are quite conceited. (I'm quite conceited)

In other words, I got a TB shot and there's now a HUGE bright red mark near the site - I seriously hope I'm not dying....

and I dreamt that I dated Prince Harry.... LOL... it must be because of the article I read on his breakup.

Age is not an excuse to be stupid

It is so beautiful in California. It's sunny and 80 degrees while the rest of the country is freezing. 

Anyways, I was looking through facebook and one of my friends is now working as a director in a congressional campaign. What the heck! She's younger than me and I distinctly remember her saying how much she hated politics and was so apathetic towards it. Now she wants to be more involved?!? I know that people can change and that all this is probably because I would like that job.....

And I was watching Simply Irresistible and I really didn't like it. I love Sarah Michelle Gellar though! Buffy! But, the plot was stupid because the guy totally hated her and thought she was a witch and was soooo mean to her and she still did all this crap for him because she loved him. Then she had to get all dressed up in the end. I mean, can't she be beautiful just the way she is. The plot was so unromantic and chauvinistic. But, I did like the eclairs in the movie......

I also realize that my shopping can be characterized into phases. There's the digital camera and accessories period, professional clothes period, the hollister-AE-Roxy period, the Banana Republic- Gap-Express period (now), and the skin care period (now). It makes me realize that there's a trend in getting older.... that sounded really weird but the stuff I'm buying is making me more mature....

Vacation !!!

Okay, so I have some rewards left over from my Southwest flights back and forth between LA and the Bay Area. They expire in June. If I don't get an interview or go visit my cousin in Chicago, I'll get to use these tickets for some other sort of trip before they expire! This makes me happy because now I know that I'll have some sort of getaway! =) 

It's 2009!

The only thing that came between me and my favorite pair of skinny jeans:

 The biggest size only went up to my thighs :(

RIP Senator Claiborne Pell, you helped send me to college!