lala land

I've recently realized what a jumble of thoughts run through my head each day. They are all so different which makes me happy because I realize that I live a fun life not a dull, stupid one that I make it out to be sometimes when I'm frustrated or stress. Here's what's in my mind recently:

1] I met an American Buddhist monk who really fascinates me. He speaks Thai better than I do and know more about Buddhism more than I do. I'm now really interested in learning Vipassana meditation.
2] Somebody I've known for a while has returned stateside after medical school in Ireland. How cool is that? He told me about spontaneous vacations to Paris and Amsterdam, Africa and Thailand. Now he's started his own charity!
3] I helped a fourth grader put gold glitter on her cross to put on her mission project. I remember building my own mission in fourth grade! Hers was all sparkly everywhere.
4] The ER is always running through my mind because I just keep rethinking all the interesting moments in my mind over the week that follows my hours.
5] This thought is so materialistic and heartbreakingly consumerism at its purest - I want that big yellow clutch that Vanessa had on Gossip Girl and the black and gold Chanel purse Serena carried. OMG.
6] And I CONSTANTLY worry about whether or not I will get into med school..... sigh.

Those things have been running through my mind and on paper [screen] they don't look as interesting as they did in my mind.

nepotism anybody?

What do you say to someone who offers to give your name a boost when it comes to school admissions and jobs?

I've said no to all three times this has happened to me and I wonder if it's stupid of me. But, as with anything I do, I would like to know that it was my achievement and not someone's fundraising or job title. And I think it would actually do little good for me... but it still makes me wonder if any of it would have helped.

a million years away

so, I haven't updated this thing in a SUPER DUPERLY long time...

I've been volunteering at the ER and it's pretty fun talking to all sorts of people. AND one person recognized me from the restaurant even though I didn't recognize him. It was hilarious because he sent his friends to thank me. I was like wow, dude, I didn't even do anything. But, it was pretty nice! :)

And when I started volunteering at the elementary school, it felt like I was away for a long time even though I just missed like four days. But, the kids are cool and I realized that I do like volunteering there especially since they're doing more arts and crafts! The kids are creative, especially the boys - I didn't expect them to like beads and paints.

I've been watching a lot of Korean dramas since my mom loves them. They're so fun because it's so unlikely to happen. There's a really popular one - "Boys over Flowers" and it's about how this poor girl gets to go to this fancy private school and the richest boy falls in love with her. Never would happen in a million years. It really reminds me of "Gossip Girl."

I still have a little hope left for med school. I hope all goes well!

And for some reason I thought of Bradley a few days ago. It was probably because of some funny memory, of which I can't remember now.....